Well, Christmas is over and I think I did well. I didn’t eat a lot, which was good for my diabetes. However, I ate some potato chips Christmas night and in the morning my blood sugar was elevated.

As far as my RA is concerned, I was in a flare and had to get back on steroids. I am presently weaning myself down from 20 mg to 5mg, by the end of the weekend.

20 milligrams of prednisone have not taken all of my discomforts away. My neck, shoulders and face continue to bother me. My unhappiness about the situation has prohibited me from blogging the last couple of weeks, and this of course is not good.

Sometimes I sit in my recliner to watch television and unpurposely fall asleep. My damaged hands stop me from making my bed completely and opening jars. I want to vacuum my rug, but can not.

I was diagnosed with my auto-immune disease in the early 2000’s. Living with RA and my other chronic illnesses has had it’s complications. And I’ve learned that I am not the woman I was once and after all this time it still pisses me off.

Because my medical conditions infringes on my desires to be a normal human being, if that is such a thing ; I think it’s time I realize I will never be that woman again- only a miracle can make that happen.

However, despite my present medical issues life is not hopeless, I woke up this morning all thanks to God and he is going to help me cope (mentally) with my illnesses so I can continue forward and be relatively happy.